True independence is my dependence on HIM

LOL! I must laugh to myself as I reflect on my "independent" days. Back in the day when I was in my mid 20's, I was a glutton for "independence". I use to gloat over having my own money, my job, my own car and especially not having to depend on a man for anything. As a matter of fact, Destiny's child "Independent women" use to be my theme song. Come on, I know ya'll remember it..."shoes on my feet, I got it! Clothes on my back, I got it! Rock I'm rockin I bought it cuz I depend on ME if I want it! Oh my goodness how I use to gloat in the power of that song. But as I began to mature spiritually in Christ, he chose to strip me. Strip me of the security I had in the job, the fat bank account and being able to buy whatever I wanted at the time. And being stripped, gave me no other choice but to truly depend on HIM in order to gain absolute independence.
God does not want us to be so self sufficient that we cannot depend on him to supply our needs. He wants to supply our needs, he wants to be our go-to guy for everything. So because I was in a place of disabling him of doing just that he had no other choice but to put me in check reminding me that he's the one who gave me the ability to be "independent" in the first place. So now I've learned that depending solely on him, allows my independence to get healthier and stronger because now I depend on him to allow the means for me to gain wealth which promotes self sufficiency, but through him. And now looking back, what I went through was well worth it because I've learned that there is nothing wrong with being independent as long as you are totally depending on Him; allowing him to do what he needs to do for you in order for him to get the glory.

(c) Lorraine Benjamin 2011